Does anyone else have this problem: that if you think about something enough, like it’s just a thought that got triggered by something and now constantly goes round and round your head, that you will eventually make it come true, just because you were thinking about it too much?
Because, I do this a lot. And it’s basically always always always bad thoughts that I literally obsess over. And, each time this wave of anxiety and horribleness comes over me, I am convinced CONVINCED that my brain will somehow make these dreams/thoughts/nightmares, what have you become real.
As if I have magical powers.
Deep down I know this is silly and irrational.
But, the irrational part of my brain has completely taken over my body. I can’t shake it off, no matter what I tell myself-or what anyone else tells me.
And, I feel like a monster that cannot be stopped, destroying everything good in my wake.
It takes me a while to snap out of it-to stop obsessing over it, and go back to being a “normal” human being again.
Until the next horrible thought crosses my mind and I continue to dwell on that for days and days and days, waiting for that to come true, merely because I thought it up in my stupid, stupid imagination.
And why is it that I can never obsess over my good thoughts?
I’m a mess.
Third Eye Blind - Semi-Charmed Life
I know these will all be stories someday. And our pictures will become old photographs. We’ll all become somebody’s mom or dad. But right now these moments are not stories. This is happening.
We’re all born a Witch. We’re all born into magic. It’s taken from us as we grow up.
ben wyatt is an adorable precious cupcake who must be protected at all costs